Sadkhin Complex-day fucking three

I'm totally on the verge of quitting...not even kidding! This is the hardest fucking thing ever. Today was the frst of 2 milk days and I would kill for something/anything to chew on. Still no cheating but it doesn't mean I don't dream of it. I am getting crankier by the minute and I am starting to feel bad because I am taking it out on my boyfriend. He is super sweet and is trying not to make it any harder on me. He doesn't eat in front of me when he doesn't have to and makes sure to get things I hate when he does eat in front of me. On the flip side, I am taking out my hunger anger on him which is not fair. At least when I was eating like shit, we argued about normal stuff and I wasn't near as irritable. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I need something tangible to eat and just drinking milk or eating little to nothing is bullshit. But I am going to give it a month(not just to the next doctor visit) no matter what and see what happens from there. 3 days down and 9 more to go. FUCKING HATES IT!!! ***