Sadkhin Complex-day 11

Ahhhhhhh!!! I want to eat real food so bad! Today was 1 of 2 for my milk days and I had the Starbucks drink they told me I could have and it was actually delish! I go back to the clinic thing tomorrow and all I'm hoping for is some damn results! I'm not asking for a huge difference in weight but there better be a little one!! If not, then I'm done! I'm not going to waste my money, my sanity, and my niceness to not get good results!! BUT...I will go tomorrow and if/when the results are good I will continue on this ridiculous path!! I will be positive until I have reason to be negative! NERVOUS ABOUT IT!! ***

Sadkhin Complex-days 9-10

So I have figured this out!! Day 9 I had a salad and then some chicken and mac-n-cheese! The mac-n-cheese is definitely no bueno but I have decided that on my food day I will eat normal (not bad-but normal) and I will not eat past 7 (I will try for 6 but that sometimes is not possible). Today (day10) I had another salad for lunch and then tonight I had some guacamole with a few chips, half a nacho and a little flauta. So, I go back on Monday and I fully intend to keep up with the rotations and milk days because it does help with my appetite and that way I don't completely fall off the Sadkhin band wagon! Hopefully this will not make me as cranky with everyone and I will still be able to be semi-normal when we do go out to eat and everything!!! I am excited because I know that still doing the rotations, not drinking my Dr. Peppers, and not eating near as much will help me lose a lot of weight! Taking the "Badkhin" with the good is my ticket to being skinny I think!! excited again!! LIKES IT!!***

Sadkhin Complex-day 8

So I don't think I'm going to do this after this first go-round. I enjoy going to eat and everything too much to just drink milk or just eat veggies and fruit for a few hours a day. I mean I don't even feel any better. Again, I knew the outward results were not going to come this quickly but the inward results should have been here by now! Its been 8 days! Seriously? I'm starving myself for nothing...? Bullshit! I will wait until I go back to see what the guy has to say and how much weight I lost but unless its 6-7+ lbs I'm done. HATES IT(again)!!!***

Sadkhin Complex-day 7

So today was the second round of my milk days and I have come to realize that I actually like these days a little better!!! They are not as complicated! You drink 2 1/2 glasses of milk and you're done! No weighing or wondering if I'm eating too much fruits and not enough veggies..it's just much easier!! I didn't do very good today though! I didn't get all my milk in and I missed my 5 o'clock rotation! I was late for my 3 o'clock rotation too which is apparently a HUGE no no!! There are 2 special times (3pm and 7pm) that I must NOT miss or be late for..oops!! TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER!!!! I'm tired of kind of half assing this and will not be doing it any longer! I go on Monday to get new balls put on and to see my progress and I will not be happy if I haven't at least lost about 6-7 lbs or more!! (especially because the guy at the clinic thing said if I haven't lost at least 10-11 lbs then I'm doing something wrong!!) TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER!! I have no choice in the matter!! I am the only thing keeping me from enjoying my life and being happy with myself!! :-) TRYING TO LOVES IT!! ***

Sadkhin Complex-days 5-6

So these 2 days were my fruits and veggies days and I did awful!! I didn't get my veggies in both days and I forgot like 2 rotations each day!!! I cheated too and made a little sandwich wrap thing without the bread..well 2 actually!! :-( I put the cheese in the middle of a piece of lunch meat and that was my sandwich wrap!! ugh-but I'm not letting it get me down and will start back fresh!! (i am writing this on day 7 but I didn't want to miss too much-not that anyone else reads this but it helps me to stay accountable!!) LIKES IT....??? ***

Sadkhin Complex-day 4

So it's my 4th day on this stupid diet and although its getting a little easier it still sucks hardcore. This was my second milk day and there's just something about not chewing something to eat that doesn't exactly cut it. I have become addicted to unsweet tea and sugarfree gum just to get through the day. I am so ready to go back to the doctor to see if this is actually working. I do not feel any better at all. I wasn't expecting to look any different but I was expecting to feel a hell of a lot better! Or at least different...but we shall see! Tomorrow I actually get to eat so I'm excited about that! Still dreaming of a cheesburger n fries with a dr. Pepper but I haven't cheated hardcore yet so I don't plan on it any time soon! I'm so afraid that if I eat a full meal, it will completely make me back track and have to get used to this whole not eating thing all over again! Not a risk I'm willing to take at this point!! Still not having fun but not as miserable...DISLIKES IT VERY MUCH!!!***

Sadkhin Complex-day fucking three

I'm totally on the verge of quitting...not even kidding! This is the hardest fucking thing ever. Today was the frst of 2 milk days and I would kill for something/anything to chew on. Still no cheating but it doesn't mean I don't dream of it. I am getting crankier by the minute and I am starting to feel bad because I am taking it out on my boyfriend. He is super sweet and is trying not to make it any harder on me. He doesn't eat in front of me when he doesn't have to and makes sure to get things I hate when he does eat in front of me. On the flip side, I am taking out my hunger anger on him which is not fair. At least when I was eating like shit, we argued about normal stuff and I wasn't near as irritable. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I need something tangible to eat and just drinking milk or eating little to nothing is bullshit. But I am going to give it a month(not just to the next doctor visit) no matter what and see what happens from there. 3 days down and 9 more to go. FUCKING HATES IT!!! ***